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Everyone wants success, but no one thinks about how scary it is. We're used to failure. We may not like it, but we recognize it. We know the rules. Success is a whole other world, one that's filled with a mist of uncertainty and surprise. I wonder sometimes if people deliberately sabotage themselves, just because failing is easier and safer.

Last night, a friend suggested that I have my husband make me a "wiki", an entry about my novel's world on Wikipedia. She said I should do it before someone else did. While I appreciated the thought, it struck me as weird, and I laughed it off. After all, who would want to be posting about my world besides me? Not like I'm anybody special, aye?

And then it hit me. When the book comes out, someone might actually like it enough to do that.

I cannot express how frightening that is. But I'm ready to take the chance on success. Because failure may be easier, but it just isn't as much fun.